Blackout Rage

Blackout Rage: fury to the point of unconsciousness, after which your actions are no longer your ‘own’

Introducing my first short film entitled ‘Blackout Rage.’ It is the story of a young woman who is unconsciously violent with her first boyfriend in bed and the resulting exploration of her childhood trauma to try and find the source of her torment.

I wrote the script when I was twenty years old, so it had been sitting lifeless for quite some time. Our incredible lead actress Celia Green inspired me to make the film, as I was sure with her inestimable talent she could play the difficult and bipolar roles of Mona and Amber. She did an incredible job alongside Ethan Laniado as Lucas and Pancho Bhogal as John. It was a pleasure to work with such wonderful talents. Their trust and commitment to the project has been an invaluable asset.

Celia’s sister Lucie Green saved the day with her incredible style and makeup skills. Reuben Ward agreed to do the sound recording after we met by chance and connected over film in real earth angel style. Amber Fairlie came through with the slicked back ponytail for Amber’s look in a pinch. Frida Jenkins-Roe gave us her valuable time assisting with the set decor. My loving husband DJ Fathom and Ali X supplied the original soundtrack which really is the glue of the film. And finally my mum, Jeanine Mackie, was by my side every day of shooting, making sure we were all fed, happy and on schedule.

I took on the writing, directing, shooting, production and editing of this film in a learning exercise for myself, as I want to be a director who is knowledgeable about every aspect of filmmaking. That being said, I wasn’t sure if the final product should be included as part of my portfolio because I wasn’t sure if it was good enough. It is a dark, strange film that is very close to my heart. It can be tough to have any perspective from a creator’s point of view. Sometimes objectivity can save the day. So I decided to submit the film to a handful of short film festivals I admire. If any of them accepted ‘Blackout Rage’ I would show it to the world. If not, I would put it away and take the lessons into my next project.

Much to my surprise and delight the film has been honored as an Official Selection of Venice Shorts, Montreal Independent FIlm Festival and Big Sur Film Festival so far. So here it is for the watching. Please enjoy and watch responsibly. Rated R. xo

To Be a Woman

Cricket is an 18-year-old beauty Queen from a small town outside of Ottawa.  Her first experience with pageantry was the heartfelt, charity-oriented, supportive experience of a hometown pageant which she won.  This brought her to compete in the Top Model of Canada pageant which she then won.  After winning, the first thing said to her from the judges was “You better lose a bunch of weight if you want to get an agent.”  Cricket quickly became disenchanted with the modelling industry.  On her way to Egypt to compete in the Top Model of the World pageant she stopped by my studio to shave her head and do a photoshoot/interview for Herself.com via Caitlin Stasey.  Cricket’s plan was to wear a wig to all her fittings leading up to the pageant so not to be disqualified and although nervous, managed to get through the lead up without incident.  Cricket revealed her shaved head at the Top Model of the World and needless-to-say, she didn’t win.  Her interview and photos were published on Herself.com to hopefully inspire women to love themselves as they are. I shot this video throughout the head shaving process which became a rebellious ritual of sorts. Cricket wrote the accompanying poem to give voice to her actions. I found it to be raw and of a high quality. I hope you enjoy it too. xo

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